“It can be really sad and upsetting, when there is somebody that you like very much and there is little similarity between each other.
I mean, you can still “get along”, but when the difficult time comes, and you need to reason it out together, you just don’t have the similar method of approaching and understanding the issue and solving it, and it gets you nowhere. It can be really frustrating, because there are these good feelings that you have for this person, and yet, you realize how so far away you are from him, as far as the way of thinking and understandng goes. Seemingly, from the outside, it’s a good, smooth, easy going relationship, and this kind of relationship can give you happiness, pleasure, everything there is to be, but deep down, you just don’t match.
It is no big deal if you don’t have to deal with the person on so personal a level, but, if it’s somebody whose feelings for you mean so much to you and who can really affect you, who can possibly make you feel hurt, through the superficial (yet very much laboured, which is even sadder) understanding, the problem gets serious. It makes you very sad.
that’s, how I’m sad today..”
– from Wednesday, April 25, 2001.
and now I think even that was rather happier.